Maybe our heartache never dies with the hot night crash

wearing H&M maxi dress, Amisu leopard coat, vintage boots

I'm way behind on posts.. I know! But before I dive into a different fashion season, I have a few more winter posts to show. Last month, I took a quick weekender to Sweden to visit a girl friend of mine. I made the discovery that haircuts are expensive in Sweden, and therefore Swedish boys have pretty hairstyles, Bilar candy is awesomest when its the sour variety, I have an extreme dislike for liquorish, macaroni & cheese makes for perfect hangover food, Bacardi Razz + sparkling water is delish, Swedish bands are sick and McDonalds at 3am is a total mobscene - where a beer-goggle semi-handsome middle eastern guy tried to pick me up while waiting in line for our BigMacs.

Lately Ive been thinking a lot about friendships and their authenticity. People have always said I'm some kind of social butterfly, and I guess in the end, its the professions I choose and the places I live in that expose me to a wide variety of personalities. Throughout the years I have always struggled with female friends. At times I had many of them, and occasionally I would allow myself to be sucked into a circle, a gaggle of girlie girls and the results would more often than not, be disastrous.

Maybe I'm an easy target. I don't like to go for group manicures, I don't squeal when I see someone I love and jump up and down like a lunatic, I  don't proclaim my love for my friends publicly, and every 2 hours, I don't need a clique to survive or justify my importance. Friendships should be effortless, you are either friends, or you aren't, its that simple. You shouldn't have to prove yourself on a regular basis, you should be able to talk about anything and expect the truth.. right? Based on my experience, it is precisely those who claim to be such amazing friends, who turn out to be complete nightmares in the end. Chances are, they don't even know what friendship is about. Its about being honest and real and actions and not words. Its about unending respect, for you, your friendship, your life, your friends and your relationship. Empty words and overestimated promises mean nothing to me if your actions say the complete opposite. And excuses are just a pathetic attempt at saving face and continuing the pretense.. all in fear of losing potential friends and maybe one day having to stand on their own.. excuses are an insult to my intelligence and I hate feeling insulted. So really, at the end of the day, if you feel betrayed by a so called friend, cut them loose. They will never change, and you will never forgive yourself for wasting so much time on them. I would like to tell you that there is good in everyone, maybe there is. But be sure to double check before you trust anyone in your life with anything that means something to you, especially if it has anything to do with your heart.

XOXO