Now it's all in your hands and it feels so beautiful

[All photos taken with my disposable film camera ♥]

It must be the schizophrenic in me, but I am starting to love my developing routine here.. and at the same time, I cant help but miss my humble little life on the island Ive come to love. There is just something bewitching about running barefoot and sun kissed skin that I will probably never get over. The clock is ticking and soon my life will take a different turn.. planes will land and I will have the much anticipated kitchen Ive been asking for. Ive been having quite the meaningful conversations with those around me, each of them yielding a different weapon of truth, each of them making as much sense as the other. In your 20's its just unavoidable to feel lost, forced by society to adapt to grotesque and antiquated social standards. At the end of the day, nobody can make these decisions for you, and the results can sometimes be excruciating. We all need to grow up someday and stand by our choices, no matter how ridiculous they may be to others - if its in your heart, its in your soul. Risk it. And if we fall flat on our faces, then learn the lesson and get on with the program. The most important thing about it all, is that you had the guts to try, come what may.

Everything else is completely insignificant.

♥

I'm moving I'm coming can you hear, what I hear It's calling you my dear out of reach

[ Photos taken with my disposable camera ]

Yesterday, I: wore shoes, took the MRT, walked into a mall, had someone try to mop my feet at a 7/11, visited my fashion school, doodled, met up with my classmates, got my maxi dress caught in the escalator, ripped the hem, used a pair of scissors to cut my hem at a National Bookstore, had Cibo for lunch, gossipped and reminisced, finally bought a copy of the Olsen's "Influence", took the MRT, window shopped, stood in line for a cab for what seemed like and eternity..

Today, I: ate chocolates for breakfast, scouted the mall for the perfect Chanel nail polish, almost bought too much makeup I cant afford, made it out of a MAC store without going broke, met up with my cousins, ate BBQ'd ribs at a TGIF, bought both white cheddar and caramel popcorn (in separate bags) and a yoggi shake, watched SATC2, loved it, fell in love with all the outfits in the movie, wondered if all the characters were suddenly millionaires judging by their wardrobe, bought way too many take out pretzels, stood in line for a cab for 3 minutes approx. and headed home to pack.

Cebu, here I come! ♥

And I would cry a thousand more if that's what it takes

I miss my boy. Moving out without him sucks major balls.. even retail therapy cant pull me out of the temporary clouds. And what with my favorite bar closing down, which happens to be the place where we met, it seems like I really have no choice but to face to music.. at least until I hop a plane and find myself back in the comfort of my Nana's house. Yesss.

In an attempt to cheer myself up, I did a little damage to my credit card.. Ooops.

Well, it was a RVCA dress, so in the end, it was all worth it. ♥

PS: Photos taken with my shitty disposable camera that I love so much x

inDisposable Summers

• Disposable cameras are quickly becoming my new favorite thing. These are from my first two rolls. There is something about having to wait a few days to find out whether or not you got something decent in the can. I'm not big on surprises, in fact I despise being caught off-guard, but this is the kind of surprise I could get used to.
• I have been procrastinating like a champion again, it has been raining so much that I have only been able to muster up energy to finish Miss Allie's clutch. I am only beginning to start to feel the guilt over the amount of junk food consumed within my 4 walls.. I am only comforted by the belief that every female in the world should have the right to limitless amounts of chips, chocolate and candy.. well, once a month anyway.
• Mini Chupa Chups lollipops are the best thing ever.. Hint of lime Tostitos are a close second.
• Have you seen Pan's Labyrinth? I am telling you, if you love Alice in Wonderland, this is a must see.
• I have a few projects in mind.. I will get started as soon as I get the winning bid on this ring I've been lusting over on eBay. Pinkie promise.

♥
dane