Thursday, May 2, 2013


Here is the behind the scenes video from my PORMADA.COM lookbook shoot. Such an awesome team, such a fun shoot! So much love, thanks, #teampormada XxXx

Pormada May 2013 Lookbook
Model: Dane Gonzalez
Video shot by: Calvin Siu, Alyanna Gerona, Khaye Rodriguez
Hair and Make Up: Ria Aquino
Styled by: Sarah Meier
Special thanks to: Cynthia Kurleto

Sunday, April 21, 2013

InstaBEAST ❤

Since Instagram has become such a daily habit for me, it has turned me into little miss lazy pants in terms of actually getting my behind on blogspot. In an effort to change this, I have decided to start updating regularly with all my Instafashion/beauty related snaps.

1. Summer heat + fever = death. Hat from Bangkok, monogram shirt thrifted.
2. My blatant half-nekkid contribution to's beach/pool wear feature. Zara bikini bottom, DIY headband worn as bandeau, silk kimono made by yours truly.
3. Playing with my happy meal toy in my Wanderlust by Maggie Wilson ruffled bikini, tortoise sunnies from street market in Morocco.
4. "I don't have ugly friends." And they all talented, too. #beastfriends
5. Now and then. Summer Hair Dare feature by my lovely amazon friend Sarah Meier on What's next?
6. My usual "work-bound" outfit & my friend Dee Jae Paeste's insane-o street-art. Ladies and gents, TALENT.
7. Post hair chop at The List. Snip snip snip. Hello summer heat, I'm ready!
8. What I wear to work on Incognito Fridays.. so you can remember to....... Comme Des Fuckdown tee from Terminal Inc. at Ronac Center. Go get 'em!
9. Sunday SUNDAZED at Aracama outfit.. a.k.a. "Group Therapy" for me and my galpals. Illest tee cut up into one-shouldered tank, swag courtesy of Mr. Fatlace, the man behind Illest himself. Illest is available at Trilogy boutique, and soon on Snapback from Bangkok, shoes from Parisian.
10. Cameo by yours truly in the Philippine Star for StokedInc in their brand new surfwear. If you are a waterbaby, you must must must check it out.

I have realized today that Instagram has helped me appreciate my blessings in such a big way. On the dog days, I spend a few minutes scrolling down on my profile, in order to remind myself of all the beauty around me, and it instantly brings back the happy. I highly recommend it.. now go and post something inspiring, and flood my feed!

HOLLA at your girl on IG @renegadeloverrr  ❤

Hope you kids had a perfect sunday, because I sure did. Bisouuuus X

Monday, April 15, 2013

I know I don't move very fast but I'm heading for the stars

There isn't an excuse in the book valid enough to explain why I've been such a terrible blogger. You guys sure you don't want me to just exit? I've only had enough energy left for Instagram.. Life just gets in the way sometimes.

The last few weeks have been like a roller coaster ride - the good kind. Still evidently single (for soon, a year) I'm taking advantage of my much needed alone time to get to know myself more. I realized how lost I had been in the past two and a half years, after my huge breakup drama, something that failed to register for the longest time, and it's such a relief to be able to breathe out after all this time and energy spent on all things negative.

These days, I find myself wanting to understand the simple things more. I am more aware of the true meaning of friendship, and investing more love in those who I just know will be around for longer than a weekend or two, and just that in itself has brought me so much happiness. Maybe it's turning yet another year older, but I can't help but continuously be grateful for how far I've come. I've turned into the dream machine that I had forgotten to be and borderline naive or not, I've decided to delay my return to reality.. Indefinitely.

These photos were taken by the most brilliant Jenna Genio for YStyle on Philippine Star. It is so rare for me to invite people into my home, my sanctuary and safe place, so here you go. I bought my vanity at a thrift shop, on a little adventure shopping spree with my most fave renegade stylist Carla Villanueva, and turned it into an almost shrine-like little spot by the window. Clearly I'm a big fan of skulls, flowers and crucifixes. I've also realized that my humble shoe collection needs a much awaited update.. And since I'm no longer moving around like a maniac, can that be my new excuse to go on a shoe-shopping frenzy?

Wearing a customized thrifted black leather skirt, Hanes bra, leather Converse kicks and a metal plated snapback from Bangkok

Thanks Sharon Soledad from Shu Uemura for my makeup!

Sunday, March 24, 2013

Eating soft ice cream, Coney Island queen..

This gets me even more excited about the summer! Goodbye boots, hello pedicures and flip-flops, popsicles and sunburns! 

Every Color, Everyday: Live in Havaianas Color

Looking around, it’s amazing to see a world so full of color and life. But all too often, we don’t realize that we are even more colorful and vibrant than the world around us. To say we live rich lives is an understatement; and to say that we are defined by just one color is an injustice. From feeling blue one day to being tickled pink the next, each day adds another colorful brush stroke to the amazing painting that we are. And with Havaianas, you can live life in full color both inside and out.

Every Color, Everyday
Offering flip-flops in all the colors of the rainbow and then some, Havaianas understands that people live vividly hued lives. Human nature is dynamic, not static, and no one can be boxed in by just one color. As people live and love and move and act, they continue to add more layers to themselves – which are painted richer and brighter hues because of their experiences.
This summer, Havaianas invites you to celebrate life by embracing your vibrant and colorful self with the latest collection of new shades from the world’s most loved brand of flip-flops. This summer’s release of the now-ubiquitous Brazilian flip-flops features new colors for beloved Havaianas classics like Havaianas Top, Havaianas Top Mix, Havaianas Slim, Havaianas Brasil, Havaianas Brasil Logo, Havaianas Brasil Mix, and so much more the perfect companions to match every look, mood, or lifestyle as you continue to live summer every day of the year.

Soaking in the Summer State of Mind
Havaianas aims to celebrate different facets of individuality with its latest summer collection. Each color in the Summer 2013 collection encourages people to live life in full color both inside and out by embodying certain attributes that make each and every person unique. Aside from classic White and Black, other stunning colors such as Amazonia, Marine Blue, Fuchsia and Lime Green are perfect for expressing your inner self through comfortable, and simple yet stylish flip-flops.
Havaianas believes that summer is not just a season – it is a state of mind that allows you to live freely and expressively, by embracing the many millions of colors that create the canvas of our lives. With the many styles and colors on offer, it allows you to make a strong or subtle fashion statement whether you’re stepping out to do groceries, digging your feet into the sand on a sunny beach or getting ready for a laid-back dinner or glamorous night on the town, there is a pair of Havaianas that is perfect for everybody, every day and every occasion.  Whatever your mood, you can always count on Havaianas to be your constant style companion this summer, because you deserve to live a colorful and exuberant life.

So this summer, live life in full Havaianas colors and express your colorful self both inside and out by grabbing a new pair of Havaianas in any of its exciting new colors!
Experience the summer vibe that never goes out of style with the world’s favorite rubber flip-flops brand, Havaianas. Take part in the Havaianas story and grab a pair now, available in Metro Manila at All Flip-Flops, Celio, Complex, Duty Free Philippines Fiesta Mall, J&S Surf Shop, KidSports, Manila Polo Club, Nail Spa, Ocean Front, Plana Forma, ROX, Rustan's, Stoked, Tick Tock Flip Flop NAIA Terminal 3, and Urban Athletics. For provincial outlets, visit

I'm fiending for the last pair in the second row.. 

And this is my current constant companion:

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

So I wrote you a letter wedged into my forearm

Plagued by my own perhaps self-afflicted emotional barricade, I feel like I have reached a point where there is no way of escaping having to put everything into words. A series of mishaps and misadventures in the recent weeks have taught me many things I secretly refuse to accept - all of it shrouded in a veil I pretend I am able to keep over it. But something's gotta give, man.

The past year has been nothing but one big life lesson to me. I mended, I broke, I mourned and I celebrated, all seemingly at the same time, and being on my own has given me more perspective of what my life truly means, to myself.. and to others. I have arrived at a crossroads with oncoming traffic from all directions, and my way of coping has obviously been to deny myself the chance to acknowledge it, by simply allowing myself to drown in the ever-seductive pool of my own emotional madness.

I am told, on a regular basis, that I am un-tamable. Whatever brings people to brand me with such a strong and rigid label, is quite possibly the career path and lifestyle I chose for myself, now that I am on my own, for the first time in years. Yes, I do have a wall up and around me, but nobody has any idea of the feelings that I am bombarded with every day, presumably "safely" hidden behind my walls. Maybe it is my determination, not to let heartbreak change me, or maybe it is just trickery that my mind plays on my fragile soul. I hide it well, the depth that not many people see, I hide it well under my smiles. And for the most part, it is how I choose to stay, not because I am afraid of showing weakness, but because I am prouder of my unwavering strength.

They say, do not judge a book by its cover. I say, do not judge a book at all. Because while you might think that you know what it is all about just by looking at its appearance, and someone else might think they know better judging it by its words, maybe the real truth is hidden, between the lines, in the fine print, in the absence of certain words, and perhaps can only be found in the root of the story.. Or not at all.

I wear my heart on my sleeve, and I am proud of it. I have no shame in admitting my struggles, and how I love, and how I hurt, and how I heal. It is all a part of who I ultimately will be remembered as, when that day arrives, when I am without my body, and only a faint hint of an aura that once was. And nothing, not even your sharp words, not even your stubborn judgement or your blatant ignorance, can ever convince me of being anything else but myself.

And if that only means that my struggle will never find an end to it, well then so be it. It's not like I'm not used to it..


Photo taken in Balesin

Friday, February 1, 2013

What you gonna do when she calls your name?

Frank151 Philippines: Boracay Photoshoot from Frank151 on Vimeo.

I can't believe I have never posted the Frank151 BTS video from a shoot I did with my favorite island ladies, a year and a half ago. What have I been doing with my life??

My erratic day-to-day schedule is threatening to murder me in cold blood, but I am fighting back, coffee and red bull in hand. Now if only that would really make up for the average 3-4 hours of sleep I get on a nightly basis. Oddly enough, I absolutely thrive off such rigorous torture.. which again brings me back to my all-familiar penchant for all things masochistic.

This shoot was about representing the country in the Frank 151 issue dedicated entirely to my beloved motherland.

Thank you Sarah Meier and Erica Paredes, for always including me in the most inspiring of all projects.

One looooooooove.

Monday, January 28, 2013

"Swim to me, swim to me, let me enfold you."

“If the moon smiled, she would resemble you.
You leave the same impression 
Of something beautiful, but annihilating.” 
- Sylvia Plath, Ariel; The Restored Edition

Once upon a time, I used to be a mermaid

I was missing the sea so much today that when I found this footage in the depths of my hard drive, I couldn't resist editing it so I could share it here. I kinda wish we had used a better camera instead of a point and shoot, but then again, there is something dreamy and dark about the mildly pixellated images.. highlighting my exact feelings over the beauty of this song, which plunges me into a deep blur of darkness and longing, each and every time I hear it..

Saturday, January 26, 2013

All about that, personality crisis, you got it while it was hot

I was always under the impression that lighter hair made me look younger.. and possibly friendlier. But after piling on the pound of makeup I wear to work, I am starting question that all over again.

But then again, maybe my filthy nicotine habit is to blame.

So I'm halfway out the door to test drive the "new me" - back with a conclusion soonish, which I can hopefully come up with after all the chemicals have stopped seeping through my skull and destroying my last 4 brain cells.


Friday, January 25, 2013

I'm ready to move on in a futuristic casket

Colour Club hologram nails in "worth the risque" // Marboro lights cancer stick // Phantogram song

I have decided that everything is a 1000x awesomer in rainbows. The photos don't do my claws justice!

Thoroughly cruising through my backlogs today, but my pathetically hungover body wants to hear nothing of it.. and so it is back to bed. This is all the work I managed to do today.

So. Productive.


Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Now my foolish boat is leaning broken lovelorn on your rocks

Photos  by Inez Moro
Vintage one-piece, fur vest stolen from Carla

As already previously (and shamefully) admitted, I am probably the most inconsistent blogger-being ever created. A big part of my now crumbling pile of new-year's resolutions was that I would post more regularly, and I won't even bother trying to come up with a good excuse for my impossible laziness.. I have just been too caught up in my life. Which in my world, means, I have been holing myself up in my bat cave, refusing to deal with all things that make me uncomfortable, and denying myself reality.

Alas, after a little weekend escape into a private island towards the Pacific, I am back with an almost embarrassing amount of backlogs in my inbox.. These photos were taken a couple of weeks ago, when Inez and I decided that life is boring and that we must now find other ways to keep ourselves entertained in the most adult fashion we can manage. A.k.a. I bring over something resembling something that grows in bushes, smear on as much liquid liner as my eyelid can manage to host and we start clicking away in the confines of her 4 walls until I can pose no more. Et voila.

Of course I take it you too wear your swimsuits out in public, covered only by a flimsy fur vest.


Friday, January 4, 2013

I know now that you are my destino

 I know that at close to 3am I should long be gone in lalaland but my migraine is keeping me up and chain smoking while watching my favorite short film over and over again. It was a collaboration between the great masters of their arts, Walt Disney and my favorite eccentric legend Salvador Dali. 

"Destino" is the story of the god of time, Chronos and his agony over losing the mortal woman he loves. Watching it makes my heart bruise and blossom at the same time and the song sets off an incurable case of nostalgia, leaving me spellbound and sad.

"for you came along out of a dream I recall.."