NARCISSISTIC

Here is the behind the scenes video from my PORMADA.COM lookbook shoot. Such an awesome team, such a fun shoot! So much love, thanks, #teampormada XxXx

Pormada May 2013 Lookbook

Model: Dane Gonzalez

Video shot by: Calvin Siu, Alyanna Gerona, Khaye Rodriguez

Hair and Make Up: Ria Aquino

Styled by: Sarah Meier

Special thanks to: Cynthia Kurleto

I conquer claustrophobia and demand the light

[ photos from Maniamania ]

It  doesn't get old.

Dree Hemingway for Maniamania

THE ASTRAL PLANE

SO. MUCH. AMAZINGNESS.

I've decided to drop my weapons and give up the fight against the current Mercury retrograde. I will stay silent, peering at the world from the safe cocoon of my sheets, with my two kittens purring in my lap, the shadow of a long-stemmed wilting flower against the oncoming setting sun, feeling light with thought and unusually calm and numb.

Sleep is such a cure.

LEE Night Skins

 with fellow fash bloggers Verniece and Tin ♥

[wearing Forever 21 striped mini dress, my favorite vintage plaid shirt & B-Club thigh high boots]

A loyal denim fan, it was a no brainer that my ever-so unpredictable schedule was going to have to be cleared for a dinner hosted by my favorite denim brand, LEE Jeans. The Night Skins series promised me exactly what I had been searching for, the most essential party-all-night-long kinda jeans. As a VIP host for one of the busiest clubs in town, I prefer being dressed in more low-key pieces on my nights off - and because my "nights off" have nothing to do with staying in and behaving myself, I can only sheepishly conclude that (as you have probably guessed) - this can only mean my prancing around the club scene as a more grunged up version of myself. 

The dinner was absolutely fab and the presentation straight to the point and uncomplicated, just like every denim line should, if you ask me. It was fun to get back to "blogger behavior" - shaking hands, meeting new blog friends and being reminded that people DO read my unstable word vomit and appreciate the way I flaunt my narcissism. 

Excuse me, while I write Santa a little denim wish-list...

Now, if only I could figure out a way to make my derrière look as perfect as the model's did in them, I'd be a pretty happy camper. hahha

Thank you my fabulous loverrr Earl Semitara for the invitation. Me love you long time!

My dearest readers - PS: I haven't forgotten you guys, and yes, I promise to absolutely blog more! Pinkie promise ♥

smooches

Colossal signs so I got lost, with so many lovers singing soft

 [Dane & Olga wearing Moroccan Gandouras by Kenza Idrissi Couture, www.kenzaidrissi.com]

It has always been a dream of mine to do a shoot in Moroccan fashion - who would have known I'd one day be in Morocco shooting for a lookbook.. there's something to check off my list! We wrapped the shoot in one afternoon, amidst a flurry of silk, curls and impossible-to-walk in high heels. What better place than Les Oudayas in Rabat to serve as a backdrop. The scenery is indescribable, and the clothes make you want to morph into something more deserving of its silhouette, like a goddess or a nymph. I was a bit nervous about doing the clothes the justice they deserve.. but after layers of black eyeliner and hours getting my mane curled into cork screws, one might actually be able to go as far as saying that I started to look a little bit like I could be Moroccan......

I know I have taken an unusually long break from blogging, but my god, where do I even start? It seems like the roller coasters have followed me even to North Africa. I'm not here to complain, but merely to acknowledge the brain salad of a message the universe is delivering me. My friends call it my "Eat, Pray, Love" phase, and tell me to go with the flow. But what when you have decided that you have eaten, prayed and even loved.. but that in the end you are left none the wiser? My girl Erica wrote a post a couple of years ago calling this phase "The Saturn Return", a period in your life reoccurring every roughly 28 years that serves as a time when you reflect on all things questionable in your life and as a turning point for everything in desperate need for a change. When she forwarded me the post, on a day when I was feeling particularly miserable, all sorts of lights went on as I made my way into the second paragraph. This was Me. Lost, tired and extremely vulnerable. I had already succumbed to the shortcut conclusion that maybe this was an "expected" consequence of (again) being suddenly single, and it hadn't occurred to me that maybe, just maybe, this was something that nearly all people at this stage of their lives begin to feel.

Suddenly I found the strength I was longing for, so badly. I made a big decision, one that I could possibly regret someday, but one that just feels right, right now. I realized, the pressures that we feel society imposes on us, are pressures that we magnify with our own insecurities and multiply by our frustrations. It's no wonder we can't see clearly through our own eyes, when we are clouded by our own misgivings. My main downfall is always that I listen more to what others think I should do with my life than what my heart tells me it wants. As a result, its like my own voice was reduced to a mere whisper, and drove me into a state where I had forgotten who I was, and where I, as an individual, belong.

So here we go, Saturn Return, let's lock horns, and get down to business. I am weary, but I am not afraid. And least of all, I am not broken. And I will push my way through this. And I will turn this unforgiving bull of a burden, into ashes.

Challenge, accepted.

www.boomsason.com

Since Valentines Day has done nothing more than depress me and make me more homesick today, I am switching gears and have decided to talk about more important things instead.. like fashion. My girl Boom just launched her new website for her brandspankin' new clothing line.. and I would be lying if I told you I wasn't feeling the most agressive urge to shop. My favorite pieces include the Carine jacket in white, the Delevigne cape, the Yurco shorts and the Kate shirt.. which are absolute staples in a modern girl's closet. I can't wait to get my hands on some of the pieces!

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