Love, you're news to me, you're a little bit more than i thought you'd be..

After sharing a home with someone for what seems like forever, I had expected that moving in on my own would turn me into a late night drinking, endlessly smoking, depressed little lonely girl - boy was I off! Don't get me wrong, the last 5 years of my life were stellar in their own way, and I lived my life and learned from my mistakes and will forever take my wisdom with me wherever I will go. But something happened in between my 2 week unintentional hunger strike and the day I put up fairy lights in my new home and danced around in floral dresses that greatly contributed to an unexpected surge of strength. Its like reading the book of my life while it is being re-written in front of my eyes, everyday exchanges like floating letters being printed as I go along.. me following the story as it unfolds, wide eyed, fueled by curiosity and strangely fascinated by my own unrealized fear.

I am asked, every day, how I am and the only real appropriate answer is a sly smile. I don't know how to define what I'm feeling and how I'm "surviving" this great change - It just is what it is. There are days when I miss the simplicity of grocery shopping for two, or even the ever popular anti-diet of staying in bed all weekend and ordering in for as many meals as possible - and in as many unhealthy ways as possible. But ultimately, the sheer joy I feel when I'm speeding through the wet streets on my bike, my ipod playing Goldfrapp, Regina Spektor or La Roux and my hair flying behind me is enough to make a girl wanna walk up to everyone and kiss them. Add to the mix the most amazing bunch of island girls, random potluck dinners, impromptu happy hour meet ups, an amazingly fun new job and the most wicked little corner in a two bedroom tree house and what we have here ladies and gentlemen, is a happy little single lady. So to all the suddenly single girls who have emailed me asking me: "How?", I say.. Buy yourself everything you have always wanted to put up in your space, decorate to your heart's desire, fill up your fridge with all things you love, buy as many candles as you can house, turn your new bed into your own private haven, buy yourself the most perfect key chain to add to your new keys, move in.. and sit on your deck, pour yourself a glass of wine, lean back, say goodbye to your heartache, a toast to your liberation and a big hello to the beginning of a beautiful new chapter..

♡♡♡♡♡

Fly free and happy beyond birthdays and across forever

wearing a Twinkle Ferraren beaded bikini, vintage babydoll dress

Turning 26 last Saturday was a hoot. We started with drinks the night before.. lots of drinks.. and on the day of we headed out to a secret spot for a little picnic. Everyone brought something to contribute to the already large amount of food and drinks, and as soon as we were done setting up, we just sat and ate and talked and laughed. It was exactly as I had hoped it would be. The sunset was breathtaking and by sunset we were rolling around hysterically laughing and playing silly drinking games in the dark. I could not have planned it better, it was absolutely perfect and everything I wanted.

Thank you to those who made it happen, especially my partners in crime, Paula and Matet.. and our respective partners. You rock my socks.

Lately:

• I received an email from Vogue.fr, which is Paris Vogue's online equivalent, and was asked to answer some questions for a possible inclusion in one of their articles. I mean, Paris Vogue! That made my day like you cant even imagine.
• I have spent quite a bit of time at my friend's spa, you have to check it out if you are here for the summer, I just had the best facial I have ever had there, and they managed to make my feet look umm, normal again. That is never an easy task. Go check out Body & Sole on the Boracay Main Road, across the street from Allied Bank.
• In an effort to take advantage of the last wind before summer truly hits, I have spent more time in the water kiteboarding. I have had some bad crashes, but they were nothing compared to what happened to me yesterday.. I crashed my bike. Now I have a banged up and bruised knee and my elbow isn't looking too happy either. This now means I have to stay out of the water for a while, which suits me just fine, because I can barely even get out of bed.
• Mars leaves for Egypt in May and we are moving shortly before that so there are heaps of things to prepare for.. I'm stressed and excited at the same time, and also really sad about me not seeing him for 4 months..

I will hopefully resume my blogging duties again soon, but for now here are the photos from my 26th♥; "Trust me Its Paradise" clearly still applies..

Big kiss! ♥

Lately..

1. My first batch of tiramisu cupcakes were a hit ♥
2. ASYA Premiere's rice leche flan for the sweet toothed.
3. Our "awards" from the Bolabog Oscars.
4. The sunset viewed from ASYA's presidential suite.. spot me!
5. Rainbow Velvet Cupcakes a la Dane.
6. Before..
7. After it was brutally ravished ;)

I'm exhausted from hitting the mainland today for some fabric shopping.. I ended up buying a couple of rad tie dye drop crotches, some fabric to be used as sarongs and a new swimsuit. I think I'm almost set for the summer.. this heatwave is insane, and I plan to wear as little clothing as possible to survive it. When will the rain fall? A rain dance is totally overdue.

Oh and I signed up for a formspring account - boredom struck last night! You may find the question box in the sidebar.. x

PS: Shoutout to Karencilla for reminding my cluttered brain to attempt this ;)

You say you'll bring to me deep love

People are People dress, Mala gift from India

My good friend Christine requested I try to make red velvet cupcakes.. I have a hard time resisting the challenge of creating something my friends will enjoy so I decided to make a test batch for our friend's birthday. Had I known that they were going to turn out to be such a hit, I would have made more.. and how appropriate are the heart sprinkles? Good thing I bought a few things before leaving the city.. ingredients on the island are sparse and ridiculously overpriced. Not that that ever stops me.

I had to cut my night short still, what with my cough acting up.. doesn't help to hang out with smokers and wear backless dresses, but I was going to a party - that's my excuse and I'm sticking to it. Today I had to pay for it all in the form of a visit to the much dreaded doctor. After an xray, a blood test and a few unpleasant minutes on the nebulizer, I was given what seemed like a wad of prescriptions and a plastic bag full of drugs.. As if that wasn't enough, I was told to stay out of the sun until my cough gets better, to stop drinking immediately and that if I wasn't careful, that I could see pneumonia in my future. Okay then, doc.

Asthma sucks hairy balls.

So now I must find other things to keep myself busy with.. like more baking. ♥