Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Love, you're news to me, you're a little bit more than i thought you'd be..


After sharing a home with someone for what seems like forever, I had expected that moving in on my own would turn me into a late night drinking, endlessly smoking, depressed little lonely girl - boy was I off! Don't get me wrong, the last 5 years of my life were stellar in their own way, and I lived my life and learned from my mistakes and will forever take my wisdom with me wherever I will go. But something happened in between my 2 week unintentional hunger strike and the day I put up fairy lights in my new home and danced around in floral dresses that greatly contributed to an unexpected surge of strength. Its like reading the book of my life while it is being re-written in front of my eyes, everyday exchanges like floating letters being printed as I go along.. me following the story as it unfolds, wide eyed, fueled by curiosity and strangely fascinated by my own unrealized fear.

I am asked, every day, how I am and the only real appropriate answer is a sly smile. I don't know how to define what I'm feeling and how I'm "surviving" this great change - It just is what it is. There are days when I miss the simplicity of grocery shopping for two, or even the ever popular anti-diet of staying in bed all weekend and ordering in for as many meals as possible - and in as many unhealthy ways as possible. But ultimately, the sheer joy I feel when I'm speeding through the wet streets on my bike, my ipod playing Goldfrapp, Regina Spektor or La Roux and my hair flying behind me is enough to make a girl wanna walk up to everyone and kiss them. Add to the mix the most amazing bunch of island girls, random potluck dinners, impromptu happy hour meet ups, an amazingly fun new job and the most wicked little corner in a two bedroom tree house and what we have here ladies and gentlemen, is a happy little single lady. So to all the suddenly single girls who have emailed me asking me: "How?", I say.. Buy yourself everything you have always wanted to put up in your space, decorate to your heart's desire, fill up your fridge with all things you love, buy as many candles as you can house, turn your new bed into your own private haven, buy yourself the most perfect key chain to add to your new keys, move in.. and sit on your deck, pour yourself a glass of wine, lean back, say goodbye to your heartache, a toast to your liberation and a big hello to the beginning of a beautiful new chapter..

♡♡♡♡♡

21 comments:

Mode Junkie said...

this is exactly how i thought your zimmer would look like. loving the nail polishes lined up prettily like that on the window sill. ;)

a sly smile is def. better than a frown so YAY dane!

xoxo

Bub said...

Dane, this is absolutely lovely. I'm happy you are feeling better and you seem to be doing so well babes. I love your new looking room! I'm finding ways to make my room look better..but its not really happening..haha!
http://bubbbbbbaf.blogspot.com

being miss east said...

i have missed you - you, colorful you. i love your new adobe. ^^

x,
v

Aisa.Pax.Paking.Paxie said...

i really love your posts! this made me smile. and I wanna give you a high five right now.:) So inspiring. Glad you're living your life the best way you should. :) Keep on inspiring us!:)

http://ipaxme.blogspot.com

⋆✌㋡ღ⋆ ChenMeiXi ★ 陳美西 ⋆ღ㋡✌⋆ said...

Loves it! And I love you miz spanishfly!

Cheers to a brand-new chapter! <3

i'm an island girl said...

wonderful post dane. way to go woman! live your life on your own terms & everything else will just follow. i'm toasting to this new chapter with you.. and just as you say, it is already beautiful. :)

Iris said...

A beautiful post and an even more beautiful attitude. You're an inspiration, and you make me miss singledom even more!

(Been lurking here a while. This post was so beautiful, I had to comment!)

Allie said...

CHEERS! ♥

ming siew said...

may i pick a few accessories from the sea of collection u have there? Cz they are absolutely GORGEOUS!!!! (jealous..) :D Good day!

Bren said...

Dane, you are becoming a much stronger person. Keep it up!

While I was reading your post with Calvin Harris' "flashback" song, it fit great with the mood of this post. :)

The Big Bangs Theory said...

This is super lovely! I love your room! <3

<3 Camille
http://bigbangstheory.blogspot.com

Kiksy said...

So proud of you Dane! Your new home looks wonderful. Take each day as it comes and remember to always smile! ♥

KD faustino said...

glad to hear u are moving on and feeling better :) you're sooo lovely and i'm sure as hell you can find someone who will love you, just as what bruno mars would say, just the way you are...cheesy!!! but wait, enjoy single life first! you don't know what's in store for you!!! you might actually enjoy it...i know i do :)

Toni said...

glad you're feeling all better now, Dane :)) and i just adore your new space!

oh and you make single life sound so interesting!


Perfumed Red Shoes

Sheeva said...

Can't wait to see your own space! 34 more days :)

May Kasahara said...

Love You
LOVE

ellenreviews said...

The shoes and the cupcakes are great :) nice photos. :D

Lydia said...

Hi Dane, nice blog & good pictures. overall You have beautifully maintained it, you must submit your site for free in this website which really helps to increase your traffic. hope u have a wonderful day & awaiting for more new post. Keep Blogging!

katrina Demecillo said...

your pictures are breathtaking!

and sooo serene...

keep it up beautiful Dane.

katrina Demecillo said...

your pictures are breathtaking!

sooo serene...

Keep it up beautiful Dane. =)

thediplomaticwife said...

OMGosh I love you already! And the cupcakes! LOL!