After sharing a home with someone for what seems like forever, I had expected that moving in on my own would turn me into a late night drinking, endlessly smoking, depressed little lonely girl - boy was I off! Don't get me wrong, the last 5 years of my life were stellar in their own way, and I lived my life and learned from my mistakes and will forever take my wisdom with me wherever I will go. But something happened in between my 2 week unintentional hunger strike and the day I put up fairy lights in my new home and danced around in floral dresses that greatly contributed to an unexpected surge of strength. Its like reading the book of my life while it is being re-written in front of my eyes, everyday exchanges like floating letters being printed as I go along.. me following the story as it unfolds, wide eyed, fueled by curiosity and strangely fascinated by my own unrealized fear.
I am asked, every day, how I am and the only real appropriate answer is a sly smile. I don't know how to define what I'm feeling and how I'm "surviving" this great change - It just is what it is. There are days when I miss the simplicity of grocery shopping for two, or even the ever popular anti-diet of staying in bed all weekend and ordering in for as many meals as possible - and in as many unhealthy ways as possible. But ultimately, the sheer joy I feel when I'm speeding through the wet streets on my bike, my ipod playing Goldfrapp, Regina Spektor or La Roux and my hair flying behind me is enough to make a girl wanna walk up to everyone and kiss them. Add to the mix the most amazing bunch of island girls, random potluck dinners, impromptu happy hour meet ups, an amazingly fun new job and the most wicked little corner in a two bedroom tree house and what we have here ladies and gentlemen, is a happy little single lady. So to all the suddenly single girls who have emailed me asking me: "How?", I say.. Buy yourself everything you have always wanted to put up in your space, decorate to your heart's desire, fill up your fridge with all things you love, buy as many candles as you can house, turn your new bed into your own private haven, buy yourself the most perfect key chain to add to your new keys, move in.. and sit on your deck, pour yourself a glass of wine, lean back, say goodbye to your heartache, a toast to your liberation and a big hello to the beginning of a beautiful new chapter..