Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Following a link posted on Twitter, I started my morning by reading this. It made me sad to think that someone could possibly be discouraged to start their own blog in fear of being judged, but it was a problem I was all too aware of.
When I first started my blog, it wasn't all about fashion. I was hesitant about posting photos of myself in what I was wearing because I considered myself "larger than blog-average". When I was younger I struggled with eating disorders, and having a blog actually helped me cope with my insecurities. I forced my image out there, like it or not, and for the first few months got a few responses saying "you re so fat" and "your thighs are huge". At first I felt awful about such commentary, not understanding what would motivate a person to beat someone down like that, just because of their built. Then I saw the crazy comments on other blogs, telling Rumi she needed to eat something, calling her anorexic, and calling Karla's thighs "fatter". I realized it wasn't about me being "fat", it was about some people being unhappy and insecure. So unhappy that they have to go to great lengths to insult someone, and taking false pride in knowing that they might have a more "perfect" body, according to their sad, diluted minds.
A few months later, having moderated my comments, the haters have given up. And they usually do when their pea sized brains find something else to pick on. But at the end of it all I found more than just a voice on my own little space on the Internet, I also found healing.
So if you are reading this, and are too afraid to start your own blog space, my advice is, just do it!
Cyber-bullying is only for the insecure, and unhappy.