Thursday, September 2, 2010

And then came the rush of the flood stars of night turned deep to dust

Photos by Hannah Bacalla

BTS by Michael Chavez
wearing vintage skirt, old tee, Parisian wedges

Before I left Cebu, I squeezed in a last minute shoot with the most amazing Hannah. All we did was run around the industrial area and laugh our asses off. I wore an amazing skirt.. high waisted skirts really rock my fashion world as opposed to high waisted jeans, which just look wrong on me. We ran around a bit and she tried to capture a photo where it didn't look like I was hanging out under the noon sun and fighting the wind at the same time. Its always such a delight to shoot with her, so uncomplicated and easy. This is the first in a series of 4.

I'm still in a state of shock, so my writing will probably stay tainted by my grief for a while. This retrograde clearly has it in for me, because I'm just getting one shit storm after another handed to me. Love has been an ongoing topic in my head, usually accompanied by a giant question mark at the end. Love makes everything more tragic, beautiful, interesting, painful. Love can destroy you in seconds, but it can also save your life. People tell me to move on, meet new guys, like that will help heal a broken heart. I always thought I was afraid of being alone, but it isn't me who lives with that fear, its those who jump from one relationship to the next, often overlapping, only having the courage to leave when they have found a replacement, leaving behind them a wake of broken hearts, lies and self-doubt. In an episode of Sex and the City, the question was once asked; When two people part, where does the love go? Does it dive off a cliff? Is it transferred to the next person? Does it linger? Do we bury it deep in our hearts and keep it there forever? Or does it ultimately blacken and turn into hate? One love cannot be replaced by another, just like people cant be replaced.. its never the same. The love always remains somehow. All we can do is keep on truckin', self-convinced and determined to find love again.

So why do I still feel so lost?

14 comments:

camille said...

nice blog dane. you can never lose love. the reality of it can just be unacceptable for many.

Gizelle Faye | Vanilla Ice Cream said...

i was tempted to click 'like' on the quote from sex and the city only to realize it's not facebook.

hang in there dane. you may feel lost because u need to be found. as you said, 'just keep on truckin'..and enjoy the ride.

♥ vanilla ice cream ♥

ediot said...

take care love. thinking about you. i dont know what more to say.
i did really like these photos. theyre so beautiful. the skirt looks so comfy

xx

cherie said...

i hope you'll be okay. on the other hand, you look gorgeous on Hannah's photos :)

Jodge Ledesma thinks she's.... said...

♥♥♥ Love this, Dane ♥♥♥

Catherine Catarina Au Jong said...

love it black and white, it was so emotional ;D maxi skirt

love.
etinology.

gillian said...

gorgeous! I don't think you have any bad angle! *wishing I could pull of that skirt* and yes, you're right, shooting with hannah is always uncomplicated. mura ramog ga "hangout" hahaha <3 say hi to the sand for me :)

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Aisa.Pax.Paking.Paxie said...

you look gorgeous Dana. And they're all right. You'll see the light at the end of the tunnel--soon:) Take your time and let your heart heal. Be strong. We're here for you!:)

daisychain said...

I LOVE these photos girly, so utterly stunning. I want/NEED your skirt x

Bren said...

Glad to see you are back, Dane. A heartbreak has a long healing process. It's true that moving on to another person will not replace the love you had before. The flip side is that heartbreak opens up our eyes and refreshes our soul to start anew. More importantly, at the end of the tunnel, you learn and love yourself even more. Stay strong! :)


P.S. I love the photos. And that red skirt is gorgeous!

Karencilla said...

it's great to see you again back in the blog. the pictures are gorgeous.

Hang in there. Even though this might sound too cliche, i'll say it anyways: time heals everything, even a broken heart.

Olive Jopia-Abarquez said...

The end of any relationship is a start of something new.
It's looking forward to something new is really exciting! It's like waiting for the new pair of shoes...you think of the many events/occassions where you can go and flash it!
I love the hair!

Dane said...

Thanks guys! <3

M said...

great shots! love the black and whites!

xx.M

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